Saturday, September 29, 2007

Egocentric

or the likes of it. everyone is guilty of it, no matter how little of it, no matter how unfrequent it occurs.

egocentric: feeling of ego being the centre

its hard not to feel such. not to be such. or maybe its just me?

its hard to avoid being egocentric at times. but i do try to minimize it. i know its bad. whats really sad, is self denial. dont you think? i mean its all fair and swell if you're egocentric, but to deny the fact, even after being told out bluntly, shown clearly of what has become, dont you think its time for some rethinking?

maybe he has. maybe he hasnt. who knows.

egocentricity. its really just a sword you're holding, albeit pointing to your own heart. sadly.





i dont know why, but i'm reminded lately of something from the past. basically the time when you understood everything, and i knew nuts about you. and all the blame i could put on you, and neglect everything mostly coz of the lack of capacity and load of ignorance. the time when i could feel free and unsuccumbed to anything, even when the world was closing in.





the time when i was probably 4feet tall. or less. dont u miss those days? when you wanted to grow up fast, and barely took notice of anything. but when you do grow up, things aren't as nice as how you perceived it to be? regret not noticing every damn thing that actually was good?

things were much more fascinating from 4feet above the ground.

9 comments:

Sashillia said...

didnt I pull ur pants down when u were 4 feet tall? i was such a demon innit... xP still wish u were a kid?

sharman said...

hahahaha as bad as tat may sound (although i cant remember it occuring), i still wanna be 4feet tall.

plus maybe with u non existent XP

Sashillia said...

fine. fine. =(

Anonymous said...

Raya on Sat ..invitation to your Kak's house .... can have more melayu food ...

Then later at night got family gathering at Eden. Everyone wants to be "happy" for you!!

muahhahahahh ....

TKDaddict said...

all this talk of raya making me wanna fly back home for that day (though no one will be at home) ....ahhh i wanna go open hse alsoooo, eat kuih-muih, rendang, roti jala, ketupat, satay and anything else thats edible :P

hmmmm do i wanna be 4 feet tall agn ???
naaah! BUT i wouldnt mind all my coconut tree like cousins going back to their 4 feet tall days though...hehehehee...then i wouldnt feel like a papaya tree next to the coconut tree.

and sharman why was she pulling ur pants down all the time ? hmmmmm thats quite disturbing :P

Anonymous said...

Look on the bright side .... ur dangling fruits have a shorter fall if anything ever happens!!! muahhahaha ....

btw u can come too if ur in lil anal Singapore!!

sharman said...

tkd: hahahaha come la mkn2!!!

well u know she was/is rather weird lol

TKDaddict said...

aii..wish i could...
tak guna punya malay frens here...open hse also dont have...yessh saving betul (dont know what they saving for also...all on gov scholarship)

sharman said...

HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAHAHA saving to get married laaaa